unstoppable.

Well...God has certainly been teaching me some hard and painful lessons lately. This whole adult world-thing. It's definitely harder. My eyes have really been opened more to just how difficult it really is to stay strong in the faith, be true to who I am in Christ in the midst of opposition, and yeah, once again....just how much I need to depend on God alone.

Circumstances never are perfect. Situations never, ever, ever work out according to plan. At least my plan. Times change. And people let you down.

Have you ever liked someone? Yeah, me too. You know how it goes. They just come out of nowhere! You see them across the room at a party or a restaurant, or bible study even. Your head starts spinning, you get all nervous and jittery, and  your tongue sticks to the roof of your mouth as you think about introducing yourself, or if your chicken like me, you get someone else to introduce you :) So yeah, then you meet this person, and the fireworks begin. Your on cloud ten, everything in life is beautiful and perfect, and problems just don't even compare to the joy you find when you think about the simple truth that they might like you too!! So you talk. You hang out. You find out how stinkin' much you have in common, and your attraction to them just soars. But your still trying to play it cool because you don't want them to think you're acting like some little wide-eyed 12 year old girl. But you sure as anything feel like one! :)

So time goes on. Still talking, still smilin', still happy.

But then reality hits. People who you love, respect and trust start noticing things, and say they are concerned for you. They say there is something more, someone more for you. They say don't try to make this work. You hear what everyone is saying, but you don't want to listen. How can you? You're infatuated! You're crazy for this person! You love being their friend, and yes, you dare to hope that they might even care for you!

But then you realize maybe this isn't really what I want. Or at least, that's what he is saying....just not with words. The texts slow down, the conversations at church diminish, and the smiles and enthusiastic greetings lesson... or even better, he walks away with someone else.

And leaves you standing there, wondering what in the world you did wrong.

Standing there under that summer night sky, a breathtaking Sunday night, the country music carrying over the whole amphitheater. You lift your eyes to heaven, trying to hold back the tears that are stinging your eyes under your cowgirl hat. You look across the crowd and see him still standing there. And you're heart feels like a lead weight. And it hits you. Wow. How did I get here?? And a new song starts playing from the stage...

What hurts the most was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away...

And Never knowin' what could've been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do



Then the tears come.

You look up once more at that once dark sky. But this time, you see those summer stars.
You cry out to the Only One in the universe who knows the hurt you are experiencing in that moment. You desperately try to pour your heart out to Him, but all that escapes your lips are the words, "Help me God."





And then you wait. You put on a smile. You laugh with your other friends. You dance to the upbeat songs. You snap some pictures.

And then the next song comes on. And you about fall to your knees because you know it is you and Jesus' song. So you close your eyes, and sing your heart out to Him!

But you just smile and take my hand



You've been there, you understand


It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true


Every long lost dream led me to where You are


Others who broke my heart, they were like northern stars


Pointing me on my way into Your loving arms

This much I know is true:
That God blessed the broken road


That led me straight to You


But now I'm just rolling home into my Lover's arms


This much I know is true


That God blessed the broken road


That led me straight to You, Jesus






The song ends, and you sigh a little. You feel peace. Even just a little. And you realize you are safe because you are in His arms, and His plan is perfect, and He knows what He is doing.

"The Lord will perfect that which concerns me..." Psalm 137:8

It still hurts. And that's understandable. But you hear His voice speaking and whispering truth to your soul. He loves you. He is so proud of you. He has mind blowing things in store for you. Things so exciting that these heart stings will be forgotten in the blink of an eye. And that in the end, you are His baby, His princess, His free and crazy cowgirl... and you are in the best place you can be.

So you get into the car. You cry a little...okay maybe more than a little. You hit the steering wheel.  But you talk to Him. You pour out everything to Him... and pray for Him to encourage your heart.

And what does He do?

He gives you the most encouraging thing you could possibly want...for He knows how much it means to you. He knows music speaks to you, and He knows that you are encouraged through it.
So He gives you one more song....and as it's playing on the radio, you sing with all your might, roll the windows down, and that summer breeze blows through the car, sweeping away your unbelief. For the truth is, love is unstoppable. His love is unstoppable!!





When your heart is full of doubt


And you think that there's no way out




You find your faith has been lost and shaken


You take back what's been taken


Get on your knees and dig down deep


You can do what you think is impossible



Keep on believing, don't give in


It'll come and make you whole again


It always will, it always does


Love is unstoppable!